Searching

 

Searching for love, companionship and care has been fruitless through my life. I replaced love with commitment but could not find everlasting happiness in such arrangement, leading to pain, anger, resentments and later a new life. Alone but not lonely. Coming to an understanding of who I am and where I stand. Why does it take a lifetime to understand ourselves? We spend so much time searching and as someone else stated, we forget that it is not what we look for that creates happiness but the search itself. What do I search for? It doesn’t matter as long as I continue searching.

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Comments (26)

  1. killingtime

    My first thought after seeing the picture was: “And tat’s like those make it real easy for the police to identify you”.

    August 27, 2015
    1. Somnium

      Yep! I don’t have any if I ever do they will be hidden for my own pleasure only

      August 27, 2015
  2. fierylady

    Should be a middle ground somewhere. Sometimes searches bear fruit.

    August 27, 2015
    1. Somnium

      I agree but for me now it is important to focus more on my everyday life. Planning dinner for once helps me save energy

      August 27, 2015
  3. itsacrazylife

    life is a series of experiences we create for ourselves on the journey to discover why we were born in the first place. some believe it has already been mapped other believe we make our own choices. I guess both are true but the faster you realise what your mission is the more of the mission you get to enjoy.

    August 28, 2015
    1. Somnium

      I agree

      August 28, 2015
  4. scarletts_letters

    If I knew I’d tell you, I’m utterly lost most of the time.

    August 28, 2015
    1. Somnium

      and so is most of people on earth, the rest just don’t know they are lost

      August 28, 2015
      1. scarletts_letters

        I smiled at that, at least I know I’m lost

        August 29, 2015
  5. sadinne

    I’m finding and learning that love can only be found within. The truth is, that real love requires real inner work that most people just aren’t interested in. It requires that we first be happy in our solitude; that we come to know ourselves, accept ourselves and love ourselves. We have to find our peace of mind. It requires that we lay down the ego’s defenses, that we give up our planning and fantasizing about the future and live in the Now. Only then are we really ready to love. When you fully grasp that tomorrow is not guaranteed—that this moment is truly all that we have, there is nothing to do but give everything you’ve got, expecting nothing in return…

    August 28, 2015
    1. dincali

      i love this!

      August 28, 2015
      1. Somnium

        Thank you, glad you like it

        August 28, 2015
        1. dincali

          sorry som, i was referring to Sadine’s comment…LOL

          August 28, 2015
          1. Somnium

            I loved her comment as well

            August 29, 2015
            1. dincali

              August 30, 2015
      2. sadinne

        it’s the best place to start, within..

        August 29, 2015
    2. Somnium

      “It requires that we first be happy in our solitude…” – nicely stated

      August 28, 2015
      1. sadinne

        oh yes, love to be with yourself…

        August 29, 2015
  6. redgeventuradelacruz

    I guess searching is always intertwined with learning that’s why. Life is a learning process after all.

    August 29, 2015
    1. Somnium

      it is, a long term learning process

      August 29, 2015
  7. macabre360

    I don’t know what to say to this except in my case, The less I looked the I found. I guess you can say when one drops the perfect companion forever aspects. The field of here and now for a while or longer fills the bill.

    August 31, 2015
    1. Somnium

      it does, it sure does

      September 01, 2015