Searching for love, companionship and care has been fruitless through my life. I replaced love with commitment but could not find everlasting happiness in such arrangement, leading to pain, anger, resentments and later a new life. Alone but not lonely. Coming to an understanding of who I am and where I stand. Why does it take a lifetime to understand ourselves? We spend so much time searching and as someone else stated, we forget that it is not what we look for that creates happiness but the search itself. What do I search for? It doesn’t matter as long as I continue searching.